“Great person comes with great responsibility”

This morning I was busy handling a complaint from a customer that related on legal issue. My boss and I went to see our company lawyer but she was engaged with another meeting with CFO.

On our way back to office on different floor, my boss told me that he wants me to fully take over our CRM project and Data Warehouse. At that moment, I feel worried. It is not easy for me to fully takeover additional few portfolios on top of another few portfolios in hand, especially I am kinda sick of troubleshooting and when IT plays a role. On the other hand, I currently dealing with another few portfolios in hand and I am afraid that I could not be able to handle all well.

I am glad that my boss giving me this chance to take up the great responsibility, but am I the great person? To be frank, I have not enough confidence.

Out of sudden, I am so worry and stress. People are right, when you are doing something just because to feed for a living and you are not interested with, it is really very painful. The pain is killing me. *sigh*

Do I have an option? I do not know.

I wish the next morning when I open my eyes, everything will goes smooth and changed. I hope I would have enough capital to run a business on my own or just for me to fulfill my wish to do something I want to do. Somehow, I have too much commitments and concerns. I know there are something kept urging me for a change, a change that is freaking me.

I hope life could be easier. I hope life could be less materialistic and less demanding. I hope life could be happier. Unfortunately, it is just so difficult when you are living in a busy city. I always hope to give myself a better life and future. But at the same time, the pressures are getting more each day.

I am not reluctant to be a great person, I just failed to take the great responsibility on something that I am not capable of. Furthermore, I am not good in technical area and IT. I admit that I am pretty poor on this scope. I have no interest at all.


I have a wish. I wish after walking through year 2008, next year 2009 would be a better year for me. *Pray*