A life song

If one day, someone ask me: If you can only have one song for your entire life, what song would you want to have?

I would definitely answer: Knife by Rockwell

Though this song is so old and I believe quite many of you may not remember or heard about this song. But this song, I have been listened for a very long time and it did play a role in my life since my secondary school, till I moved to KL, till now... I listen to it when I need peace, and it never failed to brings me back all the lost memories.

This is a sad song. Sometimes, people find me very pessimistic and I admit that I am. Sometimes I do worry about myself that if one day, I will be leaving myself from the world just like this. But there are times, I love for being so pessimistic, because I always see the other side of the world, and the other side of my life.

Sometimes, I do not know what I want, what I am here living for. For some people, this is really a wasting time question. But for some people like me, keeping myself to search for knowing who I am, who I was, what I have done and what I have to do, it is no longer something wasting time because if I stopped searching the real side of me, to remind me to treasure what I am possessing now, I will never know the true happiness. The more I have lost in my life, the more I should have reminded myself for returning back to the right track.

Human memories are limited. We keen to forget and we keen to lose control and distracted. Somehow, some songs, some pictures will brings us back to the old days.

This song came into my life when I was at the most lonely stage of my life, where I felt the world was only "me" alone, and I was lost in a big city. I was not more than age 20. It should be the most beautiful stage of life but not me. And I still remember there was a night I played this song the entire night where I broke up with a guy on Valentines Day, I was 18 years old that year. Of course, I love this song not because of this, it is just simply because the song is very beautiful and also the stories walked through along with me in the past.

Knife
You touched my life
With your softness in the night
My wish was your command
Until you ran out of love

I tell myself I’m free
Got the chance of livin’ just for me
No need to hurry home
Now that you’re gone

CHORUS:
Knife
Cuts like a knife
How will I ever heal
I’m so deeply wounded
Knife
Cuts like a knife
You cut away the heart of my life

When I pretend
Wear a smile to fool my dearest friends
I wonder if they know
It’s just a show

I’m on a stage
Day and night I go through my charades
But how can I disguise
What’s in my eyes

CHORUS

Oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh…

I’ve tried and tried
Blocking out the pain I feel inside
The pain of wanting you
Wanting you

Knife
Cuts like a knife
How will I ever heal
I’m so deeply wounded
[2X]

You cut away the heart
Of my life